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El. Rond Hubbard
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here's the socks
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half thoughts
realising that one of the reasons it’s hard for me to post is that i have a lot of half thoughts. somehow i have more drafts than posts on here. i get an idea, and then the idea prompts some questions like what do i do with this idea? or is there a solution?, but finding a response to those questions is sometimes hard and somehow there’s always a next question
the next question here is what do i do with these half thoughts?and at least in this case it’s pretty clear[…]
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i've been knitting
i’m proud of myself :)
not necessarily for the physical end products (although like hell yeah! i’ve got some cosy socks!) but because i had to do a bunch of emotional work on the way. like,
- getting comfortable spending money on myself for fun things (turns out i have to relearn this lesson every time my financial situation changes)
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advice
related to the previous post: the thing about advice is that you have to learn how to use advice
a non-exhaustive list of things that got in my way:
- treating basically everything as advice even though sometimes it’s just like, someone talking about their own experiences and they’re not really thinking about whether or not it would apply to someone else (nor should they have to)
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do it scared
occasionally i come across the advice “do it scared” and “what’s the worst that could happen?” and “anxiety can’t kill you”. many times from strangers or people who did not care to know me
it was a real eye-opener the first time someone said it in a way that wasn’t condescending. they were genuinely interested in my struggles and offered it as advice that worked for them and something meaningful they wanted to share with me
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website thoughts
i promised myself to limit the number of posts about the website. something something health of a platform inversely correlated with posts about said platform. part truth part superstition
but there were still a bunch of thoughts i wanted to get out of the way so uh here they are
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the power of journaling
is that you can feel real bad for being no contact on a family member’s birthday, open up your journal, see the linked entry for last year, read up on that disaster that you’d totally forgotten about, and feel a bit of peace for missing out on that this year round
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made a mask cover
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the power went out
it’s a pretty rare event here, for which i’m grateful
my partner used it as an excuse to bail on a work meeting. i used it to marvel at how flushing toilets preceded electricity, and to feel kind of weird about the amount of things i wanted to do which used electricity, including “boring” stuff like laundry
